Time is Ticking

Time is ticking fast.
Every tick of a second is valuable to me.

Each day I wake up from sleep, the first question that pops up in my mind is.
"Am I ready for the marriage?"

Then the next question.
"God, I'm still fat!"

Then the next statement.
"No Food for me up till end of June!"

I'm unlike myself nowadays. . .I don't put on make up everyday. . . I shower and exfoliate once I'm back . . . Then I moisturize my whole body(the hands, the legs, the neck, the back, the front) and then I put on my facial mask while watching tv. . .

Honestly not everyday but at least once every 2 days. . . In the past I did it like once every 2 weeks. . .

God, the extra mile I have to go. . . is really pain the ass. . .
But once I'm done with all these, there's a sence of accomplishment and it's really relaxing. . . Cos most of the time if i'm still awake and other than anything else I do except working. . . I feel very depressed. . . Although it's not shown on my face. . .

But if you know me very well you would know that I'm feeling a little down. . . probably a hint. . . I carry large eyebags nowadays. . .the phentermine I'm taking now causes sleepless nights. . . but I guess these are the things you have to do to look good. . .

Since, I'm oh-so-busy these few days at work. . . I can't afford the time at all to go to the gym. . . these few days. . . so phentermine sure helps. . .

Anyways gotta go. . . one more hour to home sweet home. . .

The Wedding

It's all coming in to me as a rush and I'm taking quite some time to swallow, digest and accept it all at one go.

Of course I'm happy that finally I'm taking the BIG STEP, but honestly it's all just so rush-rush.

At the moment I can't even spare the time to think about it as all my time is filled up with preparing for lots and lots of stuff and doing things that needs to be done.

Thank God for Mum's been really helping me with a lot of things. . .
She have already booked the podium, downstairs.
Met up with the caterer and paid the deposit.
Confirmed the mak andam for the nikah date.
Ordered and paid deposit for the berkats.
and she have done Oh-So-Many-Things. . . I'm glad she's my MUM. . .

Michelle and Auntie is helping me with the Sound System.
Kak Ita is helping me check out the price ranges since I am to be married at the mosque.

Wow. . . that's a 1001 burdens off my shoulder. . .

This is the family I'm grateful for.

I'm left with helping out financially and getting myself ready for this BIG EVENT.

I'm a little scared and nervous and when I sit all alone by myself I cry. . . I sometimes would even cry myself to sleep. . . I'm just a little fickle-minded. . .

But at times like this, with the wedding all rushy-rushy. . . People look at me differently as if concerned but honestly just wanting to laugh or spread un-true rumours about myself should their guess turns out true. . .

I feel pressured for the very fact that I don't have time to think about myself. . .
I don't get to decide it by myself and decisions made are highly influenced by the guest I'm expecting and mostly not to hurt the feelings of many close ones. . .

If any are wondering, I will gladly clear the rumours.
No. 1 I'm not pregnant.
I'm sure all are dying to find out. That's definitely not a reason why I'm to be married this March.

If any of you have forgotten, Mr Fiance's Mom passed on last December.
The house have been left empty and definitely too quiet.
Mr Fiance's family have their reasons to why they're requesting for the early marriage and I'm at no liberty whatsoever to tell it to anybody. My lips are sealed.

I agreed to the wedding.

My Life

Dear Diary,

It's too soon. . . Too soon I don't really know what to say, what to do. . . I'm putting a brave front but God knows I'm crying in the inside. . . I may be married this March. . .

Sincerely,
Melissa

Christmas is Family Day

Yes it was a family day. . . went to JB with Mr Fiance, Mom, Dad and Grannie. . .

It was nice. . . We had seafood as usual and guess how much it cost. . .
RM 113.50. . . cheap or what. . . If I convert back to SG it's less than SGD50. .
Which means for 5 person it's only less than SGD10. . . Cheap and good good food. . .

Happily waiting for the good food to reach. . .

The sweet old mother and daughter. . .


The happy fiance with that clamper thing. . .

Foods all gone. . . into his tummy. .. but how come his is not protruding out. . . Mine is teruk man. . .

and ohhh.. . .the oh so expensive OMEGA watch. . . so lucky at a young age get to wear such an expensive watch. . .

and just like a little girl waiting for Santa to bring her presents. . . I received mine too. . . On Christmas Day. . . the 3 bra's and 2 tops i ordered. . finally reached SG. . .


Bra No. 1

Bra No. 2

Bra No. 3

Top No. 1

and lastly Top No. 2. . . I'm wearing it now. . . so nice. . .

The good thing bout buying them bra's from the US is it comes in my size, they have different lace-y patterns I like. . . Why I hate shopping for Bra's here in SG. . . is because the nice ones never come in my size. . . and even if they do. . . it's so much more expensive. . .

I especially love the 2 bras I bought that's without padding. . . helps hide the truth. . .
talking bout it I suddenly remembered. . . some time back I went to this shopping centre looking for the perfect bra and I thought GOD so lucky this pair of bra without padding so nice. . . But one look at the size made me laugh. . . Why the hell would an A cup wanna wear padless bra. . .

Sincerely if I was an A cup I'll buy those bra with pockets inside so you can put lotsa cotton in. . . So it'll look bigger. . . hmmmmm. . . okay I'm talking like a horny little bitch now. . . Ooops. . .

Marina Barrage babey. . .

Late last Saturday, we went on our virgin trip to The Marina Barrage. . . It was sweet. . . I swear I could sit there for hours just looking at the absolutely magnificent view of Singapore. . .



It was chilly and the wind was blowing in all directions. . . I've no idea why but prolly since we were so close to the sea and there's no trees or buildings or anything to block the wind. . . It was fun. . . Walking around the whole place. . . snapping thousands of pictures. . .

The guys while still on the way walking up to the top. . .


The view from down below. ..


A pic of the girls while on the way up. . . No joke the wind was blowing in all direction. . .


The guys. . .


how can girls say no to taking pictures right? we helped them take a pic and we jump right in. . .


The guys. . .


Kak Ida already found a hair clip. . . While I had to make do with what I have. . .


Say do I look sexy. . . with my hair all in my face. . .


What's that?


Tadaaa. . . its a cake for the birthday boy. . . The wind was too strong. . . We couldn't even light the candle. . . Poor birthday boy. . .


The 30 year old daddy of 3. . . looking as young as ever. . .


The girls again. . .

and again. . .


op . . .op . . . take 5. . .

and again. . .

and. . . again. . .

Just tell me how do we stop when these guys just can't stop themselves. . .