Reminiscing

Sometimes in life there are certain things we'd be emotional about aite... I guess today's my day... I feel motionless whenever I and Miss Hell have to fight over and over again on some small issue... But still I always do have to fight for my right... I have feelings too you know...

Miss Hell and me are not growing any younger... But still we're behaving like small little kids who needs loads of attentions... Should I blame it all on me or all on her.... I'm really mixed up... It's just that when I keep giving in to her, I have to put aside my happiness but the grudges will still be there...

I know she hates me for little things in life that I've done... Wearing her stuff without her permission and all that but if she was a little nicer, I would not have done what I did... But still that's an offence rite... Sometimes it's just not about nurturing the seeds, it's all about the surroundings and nature that you have been brought up in... I wouldn't be doing it unless nature force me to do it out of FORCE....

I've always dreamt of a perfect sister like when me and Miss Hell were young.... We use to do everything together... Wear the same clothes, go to the same kindergarten, play the same barbie doll... That's how cute and lovely we were... But time passes, people changes and so do our relationship... It saddens me how much we've changed to become enemy rather than the closest sister... We can't even sit on the same sofa watching tv together... We will just start quarelling...

If I were to go first before my sister did and still wouldn't be able to resolve the problems that we have now... I just want her to know that I LOVE HER from the bottom of my heart....

I just hope we'd be better....