Reminiscing

Sometimes I get sick of my mum... My mum dotes on me so much so I've always been the one to follow her around... Do all those stuff she wants me too.. but it get's way over the top especially when she wants me to ALWAYS follow what she wants to do....

Sometimes I feel so stressed living... My dad hates me so he pushes me around... My mum dotes on me to the extend of sometimes forcing me to do stuff I hate.... My siblings... just treat me as if I'm dead.. Because we do live in the same house but they just come to me if they want to boast to me on something new they've bought or things they know I can't be compared to...

So life has been a living hell at home... and for everybody's information I'm now on anti-depressant pills... The doctor prescribe me this medicine cause I can't take a lot of stress... but he's still thinking on letting me take sleeping pills... He just wants me to try the anti-depressant pills first if I still think I'm still stressed, he wants me to write it down and express how I feel...

Which is exactly what I'm doing now... There's a lot of stuff I wanna share but sometimes I myself don't wanna disclose a lot of stuff about my family... Bee has always wanted to know why I'm stress but I'm not comfortable telling him about how I feel because of some matters that concerns my family....

I'm just going CRAZY at home cause I have no one to talk to especially when I think of the past that has happened in my life I just go uncontrollable and I just throw tantrums... Not that I have mental problem but I suppose it just occurs when I'm at home... Ya Allah tolong lah umat mu ini....