Reminiscing

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So I did went to the hospital that very night... it seems that he's not getting any better...
He even have to wear a P!@#$%^....
How sad I know... But Alhamdulillah he still recognizes me...

He was lying on the bed and I was holding on to he's hands and then he told me...
"Sara datuk sakit lah... Aper macam ni kalau sakit...."

I was on the verge of tears but of course finally I faced down and cried...
Then I start thinking of my future... One day I'll grow old and be as sick as him... And whatever happens I want my family close to me... That's the only last thing I pray for....

He's not getting much better and Auntie told me that he's already tahan so much pain and he's psychologist said that he's already thinking of suicide and the main cause for all this is TOO MUCH STRESS... I pity him... You know one day you get old and sick and you have no one to talk to about your pain and everybody's busy with their own life... Being LONELY is the first thing that will haunt yourself....

I'm scared... At present I don't even have the time to sit down with my family or go on family outing... I'm scared if I turn old and grey they won't care about me as much and I'll be left all alone and die on my bed alone... Such a sad ending....