1 week late...

So wanna know how I spent my Rayer...
Well of course with my N70... and guess what Auntie just bought N73 wah lau...
The camera function so much better...

But... I'm gonna get a digi cam instead lah... Perhaps next month or so....

So let's enjoy the pictures... Of course I love it....

and to all out there...
Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin....

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SELAMAT HARI RAYA SEMUA....

Wohoooo.... it's the end of the puasa-puasa-puasa month....

Like finally..... ahh....

So how did you guys spend your raya eve... ??? Was it fun or wat...???

Anyways mine was okay.... First trip was to the doctor... I shy to say but I'll still say... Sanggup seh dah buka pun tak nak makan just minum air only because I a bit scaredlah kan....

So it was so beautiful... The doctor told me...Melissa you've lost a total of 4 kg... Ahhhh.... *Melonjat keriangan* Only that, the doctor's a bit worried... Because I've lost 4kg in just one month.... He thinks it's too fast... and due to that... He just gave me some anarex... and in the mean time if possible don't get too worked out.... Otherwise i might just faint or something.. But I'm happy and proud...

Shan't tell how much more weight I have to loose before my ideal weight.... My dream will be fulfilled.... I'll try my best... with all the festivities and home to home visit... I'll try my very best to see what I can do... and I can see a bit lah of difference..

Apparently My mum sent my baju to be tailored at JB to ikut the size of last year's baju lah.... But I forgotten to tell her to buat 1 inch bigger cause scared you know why lah huh... and she also never get Auntie Haney to do it... But when I tried the baju last night... Guess what dah longgar... Wohooo... I LOIKE MANY MANY!!!!!

Okay I know I'm being a little boastful... So I shall just keep quiet... Well we'll see what happens next month okay....Wish me luck..

Before I leave.. Let's enjoy all this picture I take earlier... My Hari Raya Eve Celebration....

It's KAI LOVE LIS.... My hand made KUIH TART....


This will always happen if you don't count 1 2 3...


and that's when you count SATU DUA TIGER....


and this happens when I'm racing... Laju kan... cannot even get a clear picture of MOI...


and when you're tired and sleepy but your girlfriend still force you to smile.... this will always happen... BUT I LOVE U....

Tadaa.... A new picture of me... I LOIKE... Just balik from JB... Oh penat sungguh otot-otot ku... Tapi sempat bergambar masa tunggu kereta di cuci di kedai cuci kereta...duh...

The sweet COUPLE... I love the pola-dotty blouse I'm wearing...oh and Wan... I'm not wearing this blouse to pretend to be a kindergarthen TEACHER okay... I just LURVE RED....


Camera-Man : Wei... Focus lah.... Korg ni buang-buang filem ajer lah...
Kiter-Bertiga : Eh bonggok.... N70 mana ada filem... Kita pakai memory card...


Ehh Boyfy main sembunyi-sembunyi ker... Nanti kena kerja ngan hantu t#t#k baru tahu eh...


Ni dah cari gaduh ni... Camera-man tak guna betul... Tak focus pulak....
Aiseyman... Darah up ajer lah tengok.... Ada ker muka aku kena potong setengah...


Biler mamak tu nak habis ah lap kereta... Boyfy kereta you ni betul nyer berkeladak ah... Dah lap-lap-lap pun tak bersih-bersih... Nganguk ni... Dah pukul 2 pagi okay.... Esok I kerja....


So this week been a bit tiring and of course I tell you my body is so adapting too well to working at night.... I'm not sure if I'm able to be at work early tomorrow cause I'm too used to sleeping SO LATE... and the best thing I START AT 10AM... Such a torture right.... SO SAD.....

People who have fasted we still have TODAY and THE DAY AFTER..... After that you have to be prepared to be a BANKRUPT.... Yes I am... Don't ask why okay... It's so sensitive...

Well I've got some sort of a BAD NEWS to share early this morning... Last MONDAY my nephew just got hit by a BUS.... I know... it's so sad.... I of course the OH-SO-PENAKUT didn't go visit on Monday, instead... I went to visit him TODAY.... I start imagining BLOOD and then I told my mum... It's okay I'll pray from home....

He's been a strong MAN... You GO little fella.. We are all praying for your recovery from where we are...

So wanna know what happened... Well Monday he was on the way to school... Don't know how... a 40-seater BUS hit him.... He went under the tyre..... Cut the story short... he's okay now as in breathing and fine....

He suffered a fractured hip, a fractured pelvis, a fractured spine, a fractured thigh bone, donno-how-many% burnt on he's left thigh.....

The sound of all this makes me feel naseau... So can you feel what this little boy is feeling now... He just went for an operation on Friday and need another operation on Sunday which is TODAY and will need to go for a skin-grafting operation plus he'll be warded for at least 2-3 more weeks.... Can you imagine that... That's like 1 month or so.... And of course like any other growing up BOYS he will not be able to celebrate HARI RAYA....

So earlier last evening before I went to visit him... I went to TAKA hoping I could get him something to keep him occupied since, at the moment he's not able to move around and sit and walk but lay on bed all day long... So I searched high and low like one mad women but there was nothing I could get him....

So asked the MUMMY of course lah aka my big sister... She suggested COMICS.... and ME being so bonggok... I went all over TAKA cannot find only when I was in the bus on the way to Buona Vista MRT... I realised that in Ngee Ann City there's MPH..... Duhh... how could I forget rite...

So in the end guess what I got him... I bought him a heart shaped pillow that is also a RADIO to keep him company.... It's so nice...

Especially the part when he said "Cik Kak Sara... Thank you..." I felt that I've managed to put a smile on he's face... And not forgetting that.. I also got him a BEAR he can hug if he's feeling LONELY and also a CARD that says... "I Don't Believe You're Sick... You're just a little different today...."

You see thru this, I get to see my BIG SISTER from a different angle... After what happened to her SON... I can see she's emotionally affected... Earlier yesterday I called to ask how my nephew was doing... She said,"He went for the first operation yesterday and now the doctor need to give him an extra pint of blood... Cause he lost lots of blood yesterday" and then I heard her crying and crying and crying....

Kak Ita... Don't worry, he's under the good care of the doctors and nurses there in NUH.... He'll be okay... We all know you love him.... I love him and I love you too..... you just stay strong...

So... Guess what....

I've already watched HEART...
uek uek uek uek.... I cried buckets man....
I lurve the story...

Friendship VS Relationship...

hmmm.. you guys should go watch it sia.... Girls you all will love it as much as I do... I so so so feel like watching it again but i'd rather not otherwise I can't get to sleep just like last night... I was thinking of the movie ever since I watched it till like now....

Okay nevermind bout the movie let's move to what we did yesterday...
Come on let's bring the pictures in....



So you see this mamat ah-pek always gets me to fill up he's KAD PUTIH until I remember every single detail in he's passport... But yesterday... cheh... pegi fill up sendiri MISSY IS TIRED YOU KNOW....


Then you see this 2 silly mamat so excited....
ialah-ialah nanti kita gi johor okay.... boyz...


So on the way to JB we got so bored I made Wan change from one radio channel to another just to enjoy those malam raya songs.... and we sang along... SO FUN....

another picture of feeling-feeling sambil dengar lagu raya....


Then a picture of silly me... LOOK SO TEMBAM... urgghh...

Jeng jeng jeng.....

So can you all feel the Semarak Hari Raya already...

Well to tell you the truth I still have not... My 2 off days were spent rotting at home... I was sleeping half the time... Crazy I know.... Anyways... Earlier boyfy brought me to Geylang jalan-jalan.. but of course... we being malas to jalan-jalan... we just enjoyed the view from our SUBARU.... Some pictures for you to enjoy... i must say very blurry... but so semangat man... the crowd in Geylang...

anyways... I just took a picture of myself and not edited... Do I look slimmer... I know I'm a bit VAIN but anyways.... FYI... i swear I did not shrink it.... I'm happy to see my pentagon-shaped face... and the jawline really coming out and I can't wait to visit the doctor end of this month.. My regular check ups... I just need someone to tell me that I've loose weight.... I'm targetting another 2 kg off for this month...

Well sadly the boyfy doesn't wanna say anything because if he did I will feel so on top of the world and he'd be so scared if later on I just decide to reward myself by eating more... So that's the latest... i believe people who've seen me everyday would not see the difference.... but who cares... As long as I feel lighter... and I know I can do it... I'll try my very best to right...

If I have the money I'll go for liposuction.... then perhaps a brow lift and cheek injection and also to have my double chin totally removed.... and it still remains "IF"... aahhh..

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Love STORY...

Oh People you know how I go goo-goo-gaa-gaa and weep and cry sampai tersedu-sedu macam kena pukul sampai keluar hingus-hingus whenever I watch LOVE STORIES.... I totally love them... Sampai kekadang I feeling-feeling I have a romantic boyfriend yang still TRYING to be romantic tapi masih tak cukup romantic jugak.... Urrgghhh... But no matter what I love him... Duhh... 3 years hokay... But an effort to try would be greatly appreciated baby....

Arrgghh... Love story... the handsome DUDE, the sweet GIRLFRIEND, the 3rd Party BITCH!!! They totally rock my world lah... Well I just changed my blog layout once more... Just to suit the mood that I'm in now... So Dear BOYFRIEND if you are reading this... "Try being more romantic okay... Because I'm really in a mood for romance..." *RED-BOOK*

You see the new video clip kapok-ed from YOU TUBE... Argghh... So sweet kan the love song... So I google-d the love song and found out that it's actually a sountrack from the movie HEART... The first thing I go JB I'll go and get that CD... Indonesian teenager-love-story is one of the best I've seen...

The first one was Eiffel I'm in LOVE... Which made me go WooooOOOOooooW when the girlfriend from Jakarta came to Paris she was so overwhelmed to find that her bed was full of red rose petals.... Can you believe it... [p/s: to my future-husband whoever you are... just make sure i get that too...]Although the boyfriend is totally rude at times, but he is so romantic inside....(That is something to DIE for....)

I seriously think I should enrol my boyfriend for "Being a Romantic BOYFRIEND for DUMMIES"... It'll be a BIG GREAT HELP... I'll just be on CLOUD 9 everyday... Then I'll have no more mood swings no more tantrum no more everything lah.... I swear I'll not be temperamental anymore... Macam DOLU-DOLU kan boyfy...

Okay lah if i carry on yakking-yakking-yakking... I swear I cannot tidur...
Hei people do you wanna know what my 21st birthday wish was when I blow the candle that very day... It's got something to do with the mood I'm in also lah....

THE FAN SAVES THE DAY

I'm at work now... Time check 11:54pm...

My body is so against me working.... I know... it'll just be an hour left before I knock off for the day... Arrgghhh... Earlier before typing this I was like a mad woman let out loose searching for WIND... Apparently my officer left me with no air-con in this super big jumbo sized office... Can DIE ah.... My feet turns so cold and I can't even feel it... As if it's turned numb... I swear I can walk on needles with no harm done.... But my body all the way up was scorching HOT but I didn't perspire one bit.... I was quite worried but THE FAN SAVES THE DAY....

Percaya atau tidak... I circled throughout this oh so big office and finally kapok a fan from I don't know who's table... Should be a lady lah huh... on top of the table got a miniature Mickey Mouse sitting on a chair.... Waaahh... FINALLY.... I love the breeze just gently blowing on my face... aarrghh I feel so at home...

Everyone got so worried just now... hehehe... I know they don't care if I die also but they really do care if I fall sick and just decided to take MC tomorrow... Then we'll be short-handed... ehehehe... Mates if you are reading this... I'm just joking... Of course we care about each other at work right... *sings ALONG WITH Barney* I LUV U ... U LUV ME... WE'RE ONE HAPPY FAMILY.....

The clock is tick-tock-tick-tock-ticking but it's still not 1AM... Aiyoh.... BOOOOoooRING.... I can't wait to meet my boyfy... he's been such a sweety to pick me up especially if I finish at 1am... So Thursday and Friday my OFF day... Confirm the house will feel like MALAM-RAYA... I'll start spring-cleaning my BEDROOM and change bedsheet and everything lah.... plus plus plus my mum dah booking me to stay at home... No merayap-merayap... Duduk rumah buat kuih... Kalau tak anak-anak sedara KAU lapan ekor nak makan apa kalau tak ada kuih rayer.....
P/S :- my kuih raya always SOLD OUT on the first day.... because my mum only make sure we have just nice just enough otherwise everything will go to waste...

If you are wondering, we serve GOOD FOOD during open house and past experience, no one touches the kuih itulah yang menyebabkan bercendawan dan berulat berbulan-bulan and tak ada org kisah... So learning from mistakes... We serve SLOW FOOD during open house and only cakes and air panas... Air sejuk also tak ada org minum except for the first day of RAYER....

Anyhoos... I just to have to endure a few more minutes so TOODLES babes...

My SLEEPLEST NIGHT

Say in another 6 hours if I don't get to sleep it'll mean that I've been awake for 24 hours...

Urgghhh... Don't know why it's blardy difficult to get to sleep tonight... The headache is driving me crazy and the urge to vomit in the past 6 hours makes me just wake up every 10 minutes...

Well lucky for me work starts only at 4:30pm so if I try my very best to put myself to sleep later by perhaps counting sheeps or cows or pig I'll still have plenty of rest... But everytime I start counting I'll just start laughing cause when it comes to the 10th sheep that I count... The sheeps will either be laughing at my stupidity or I'll start imagining the sheeps parading in sexy model outfits... So I think might as well just forget it....

Well looks like the haze is sort of better... but according to the boyfy, the haze will start to worsen in a day or 2... He says that the haze have badly affected Malaysia, so soon it will just come back again to Singapore.... Poor us... Indonesia have so many natural disaster happening and if they don't have any natural disaster they'll end up creating one and people like us are the one to suffer...

Jeng jeng jengl... Hari Raya's coming preeeetty soon... and of course NO MORE collection for me but more GIVING.... Arrrggghhhh.... I'll be declaring bankruptcy soon man... But no worries little kids.. I've prepared something special for you this year... Which is of course a secret lah.... When the time is near I'll post a picture... Dah siap sedia pun... It was so much fun being a KID...
At the end of the day it's just how many ANG-POW's you've collected ya know...

This year raya, I haven't got any new clothes... and that's because I've not worn even a single baju raya that I made last year... I know... sounds quite pathetic eh... Since last year I was working on Hari Raya and of course couldn't apply for leave I didn't get to enjoy it.. But this year.. I've ensured that I'll not be working night shift on the eve of raya and of course Raya is my OFF day.... All done... But aiyoh no shoes lah...

Bee remember you promised the 5 inch heels you're gonna get me....
Just make sure you get me those... I lurve...

My love for heels have grown deeper because I need them considering my height and no worries mate ever since I work with the bank I've first started out with 2 inch and now on 4 inch heels...
It works perfectly fine... Oh and about biting your shoe before it bites you... You guys should really do it... because it worked for me... Spare me those blisters and tampal-tampal plaster and luka-luka which resorts in UGLY FEET....

You guys should really start wearing heels... That's when I turn the same height as my boyfy... he feels so uncomfortable if I wear heels that's because I can oh so touch he's head while in the past even jumping doesn't help...


Okay lah enuf of all these nonsensical ramblings.... I better start bobok-ing myself... Toodles..
and Have a nice MORNING....

SEX...

["You don't just have sex with anyone on the street"]
["You don't just have sex and tell other's that you just did it with him/her"]
["You don't just have sex and abandon that bitch, when she tells you she's pregnant with yours"]
["You don't just have sex cause the cutie you met at a club buys you a drink"]
["You don't just have sex when suddenly your genitals chose to take over your brains"]
["You don't just have sex like it's a norm for adults and that's what they do"]

I may not be of much experience when we talk about SEX... But being in a mix school ever since I was 7 till 20 and mixing around with guys and girls, makes me understand more about them....
When I was in poly, I got to know of many friends who do regularly have casual sex with the opposite gender... Well at the state that I was in I was far, far apart from where they were... and at time I don't quite understand those terms they normally use to replace certain of those XXXX words... But of course I still tried to do more research and talked to those who have already done it and gather information on what will happen so on and so forth.....

POINT OF VIEW FROM E LADIES
To my disbelief, many of those who have already done it, actually shared their sexual experiences with me... Their reasons for doing it could sometimes be so silly
eg from some of my girl friends,
-"We were so horny and since we've not tried these positions, why not?"
-"It happened on that very instance, I just can't control myself..."
-"At first, I'm not sure even if I should call him my boyfriend but to please him I did what he told me to and later on I got too addicted to SEX... I kept on asking for more... So instead we became no more than SEX-partners... I'll call him only if I needed it and he'll call me if he needed it from him"
-"We were just sitting around and hanging out at he's place then suddenly he just pounce on me... The next moment I knew my clothes were unbuttoned and my pants were unzipped... Since I love him I didn't want to say STOP"

You know these group of people who have done it gets quite offensive when you start asking them
-'why you did it?'
-'aren't you afraid?'
-'what were you thinking?'
-'don't you wanna keep it till you've found the right one?'

Well sometimes, to protect their own asses, they'll reason out with you saying
-"There are so many girls out there also who have lost their virginity... I'm not the only one"
-"Oh you know guys nowadays are more open-minded not like in the past"
-"Alah don't be so worried he wore a condom... I'm the least worried"

POINT OF VIEW OF THE MENS
I must be quite lucky because on the topic of SEX, my boyfriend plays quite a big part and makes me understand guys so much easier sometimes...

Guys have sex for the most SIMPLEST REASON
-"I'm HORNY!"
-"She's so hot, if I have her, it completes me...."

But again it all comes back to guys being simple-minded....
Try asking them this question....
-"Do you wanna get married to that bitch you just banged at the hotel earlier?"
They will still say "No... SEX was great.... but I still want a good lady that makes a perfectly good wife..."

So you see the big difference... Guys do it because they want to enjoy the 1 hour sexual pleasure but girls do it sometimes with a totally different meaning to it all...

These are my opinions... Don't make my opinion your opinion because you and me.... We are 2 different person....

I believe sex
["Sex should be kept till the right person, appears"]
["Sex should just be between you and him/her"]
["Sex should only be with the person you have emotional connections"]

It defeats the purpose when God gives us brains to think, we're just acting like animals we drive ourselves to our sexual needs and we totally deprive ourselves from being what God created us HUMANS....

SEXY, CRAZY ME

Wah if any of you didn't notice....

The weather's getting from bad to worst... Well having to fast in this kind of weather... Truly do not help... Somehow or rather... The haze is not that bad over at my place... Maybe because I'm living less than 10 metres away from the jungle....
Maybe the tress do help lah huh....

Yesterday when me and tuty went out for shopping cum movie cum shopping.... The weather was not as bad as today... Uuuuhhhh... SCARY..I can't even see the Raffles Hotel from where I am at the moment.... It looks sort of like Genting Highlands... only that it's clouds and not haze....

So yesterday shopping was quite disappointing.... We were at ZARA and hmmmpphh... I tried on a few of their outfits but such a disappointment not my cup of tea I must say... The colours...uuhhhh... yikes... The nicer one only comes in black...

Then suddenly my eyes caught this red top which was so nice.... Sort of a turtle neck thing... But then when I was just abt to pay the lady said that the one I'm holding already as a hole on it because of that thing they put so you'll not run away with their shirt... So she searched for a new one for me but sadly after I made the payment...

She said,"I'm really sorry but I do not have the size you want but if you'd like to try another size I'd be pleased...."

then I said, "I don't think the other size will suit me... "

Then she replied, "I'm afraid I'm not able to sell you this piece but instead I'll refund you your money..."

Of course I was sad... I looked and Tutik and she looked at me and.... She knew I wasn't happy.... Hei it's a nice top and best of all it's RED okay... What can be more sexy and crazy then the colour RED... WAh lau...

Urgghhh.... So coincidentally I'm having my stomach cramps and started throwing tantrums and everything all added to one like a rojak.... I was upset...

But of course I did not go home empty handed... I went to TOPSHOP and got me a white blouse... They don't have it in red mah... The other colour would be black and blue... So bias.... and the 10% discount card... really help... Of course I'm one of the TOPSHOP V.I.S... Very Important Shopper... ehehehehe....

The TOPSHOP card is the best... Cause you can use it at TOPSHOP, TOPMAN, DOROTHY PERKINS & MISS SELFRIDGE.... Wah power.... And yesterday for the second time I won the match 3 and win... I got a Tony & Guy discount 10-15% off... Anyone wants... Tell me.... Me... Yes why I don't need it... I have no more hair to cut... I'll look silly and I dare not try short hairdo's.... So just forget it....

and P/S : - although my hair cut now looks like all my other previous hair cut.. I was much happier with this one though... it looks nicer... even my boyfriend say so... look like a little girl... eheheheh.... Wat laugh..laugh... Not funny okay...

and oh yeah... Yesterday I cleared my wardrobe... My wardrobe's so empty now... I think I should do more shopping... But seems like I have all I need and this season's outfits from Dorothy Perkins also not so nice...

Maybe should try THIS FASHION... yikes.. they only have sizes for the poles sia... heehehehe.... I'll try to slim down first okay... Pray hard...

KARMA...

So yesterday wasn't a great day at work... Just as I was about to leave work... I had an argument with SOC..Wah lau... They are so rude lorr....

Things about them.. They do easy things... like retrieving some forms and such.... But things about what I do is OH-SO-MUCH-MORE Difficult lah... I'm not being a jerk but please an answer between an A/B and Yes/No is easy lor...

Say for an example you ask them...
"Have you eaten?"
and they say "Yes"

and you ask them another related question
"So what did you eat?"
and then they say "Nothing"

So isn't it contradicting... Well what can I say... Gundu's are always Gundu's....

So never ask them anything... Cause you'll just be wasting your time...

P/S : Maybe that's why their pay is lower....

They can't even type a formal email that's understand-able... and they reply to you as if we are living in a different time zone... once you get the email from them you don't understand what they're saying and you give them a call and they say the person you are looking for have left for work... BULLSHIT!!!!

The things people do to piss other people....

Life is so unfair...

Woooow... Today seems to be quite tiring...

Okay.... Had to wake up super early... To fight for a seat on the train... I even fought with an old auntie for the seat... Apa tak she was so Rude okay...*with a capital R*

I somehow or rather was so lucky to catch the Pasir Ris direct train from my place... That train is never not crowded... So you have to squeeze in... Personally I don't care which deck I take as long as there isn't a lot of people waiting by the door yellow-marking.. So I chose this nice spot... Cause I know I'm going to get in... True enough it wasn't that crowded... Was so happy...

You know at the entrance where there's that glass panel... There she was leaning on the glass panel... Then when the train goyang goyang... I also goyang goyang and had to hold on to something so of course the first thing I grabbed was the pole just 1 inch away from her... and she gave me that face that irritated and annoyed face... Urgghhhh

"Wei nyonya kalau tak leh kena sikit lain kali naik train hantu lagi bagus tak ada org...."

So I was quite irritated lah... but still manage to smirk and say SORRY.... Maybe I'm accustomed to it... When you do something wrong you say SORRY... But wadafak... I swear if the train never goyang goyang I would have given her a nice blow on the face... *light breeze*

She "tsk.. tsk..tsk...kan aku tahu"...

Eh eh eh.. I manage to calm myself down....

Okay cut the long story LONGER...

When the train stopped at JRG East... Almost a third of the passengers left... Sibuk org nak move to the centre dia pun nak move jugak... I purposely still hold on to the same pole and move a bit in and showed my back to her.... Then guess what lagik dia main tolak-tolak ni... How I wish I could have stepped on her toes on my 4 inches heels... But of course I didn't do it...

I main kotor... At Clementi when the guy sitting closest to the window pane left... I pushed her with my butt and got a seat....

Ending....

"I was a happy Mass Rapid Transit PASSENGER...."

Who could have gussed right.... I was on the train the entire journey SMILING...

N a happy news.... I just came back from the DOCTOR earlier... to check on my weight... I lost 1 kg... I was shocked.... That sense of motivation.... Sweet sense of accomplishment... I loike....

My aim is to be as thin as a pole so I can go for more photoshoots.... Soon.... hahaha....
Who knows i might just be the "The Next Short Singapore Model"... wakaka...

From the cute and adorable chick-EN...

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So today WE turn 3...

Yes... our 3rd Year Anniversary...

So sweet of us to also choose Children's Day to be together right....
Strange but sweet and memorable...

Baby i love you.... Now the whole world knows....

Pay day is done and over with.... I'm now waiting for my bf's pay day...
*Rubs palm* Can't wait sia...

You owe me an anniversary gift and of course duit raya also ah...
Don't forget.. Take note...

Off for now... More practising on PHOTOSHOP...