Why I hate taking trains?

Earlier today, I read the Electric New Paper and happened to saw this news article about this guy who commented that,"Removing seats will not solve the issue of making the journey for commuters more comfortable during peak hours"

I find it so true.

Although I must say I don't go public that often and rather be driven by taxi's cause I simply don't like
a) Having to stand throughout my journey(my journey always last for at least 1/2 hr)
b) Being pushed and definitely cause me to also accidentally push someone else
c) The SMELL when there's too many people at one time
d) Urges to slap people who's so inconsiderate to elders/pregnant ladies who stands infront of them and indirectly begging the seats off them
e) Elders/Pregnant Ladies who reject my offer once I've stood up and move away from my seat.(Damn it so ingrateful)
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Oh God! The list can go on and on and on. . .

DONE - CAT ADOPTED

Yes, cat been abducted. Abducted by me. . . hehehehe. . .

If you see how far apart our sizes are, you definitely think Wolf-ie been abducted by Monster-Alien. . .

Yesterday evening, foster-father aka Mr Fiance was too excited about his foster kitten so much so he drove us to Simei just to visit the Pet Shop for us to get basic neccessities for Wolf-ie. . .

We bought, a small pack of IMs Kitten food which coincidentally was the same food he was fed by the previous owner, then we bought cat tray, cat sand and a pink feather toy. Initially he was quite clingy to the cat owner but after awhile she was fine. . .

The owner made me sign some adoption form and since the previous foster mom didn't wanna accept any $$kaching I bought her a box of chocolate and a card which says she shouldn't worry bout Wolf-ie she'll be taken good care of by us. . .

So all ready to see how BIG Wolf-ie is. . . Looking from the first initial pic I had of her, I thought she's gonna be quite big but she's really really . . . Oh just look at the picture and you'll get what I mean.





No doubt I'm fat so she looks relatively small when compared to me but I swear no matter who's lap she'd be sitting on, she'll still look puny. . .

and just one more pic of hers, settling down in her own little house.


Only problem I have now is how to stop her from playing in the cat sand especially after she's done poo-poo-ing. . . As if she had to ask for a bath this morning, right after I had my bath, I picked her up with her butt and back legs soaked in poo-poo. . .

ADOPT A CAT

Mr Fiance been feeling quiet restless since his late-mom left. As sudden as it seems he have decided to adopt a cat, to keep him company.

And of course Missy Me was made the scapegoat to liase with the cat's owner. . .
Earlier today the anxious one visited CatWelfare.Org and was mesmerized by this beautiful kitten. So he called me and I did the calling and we were allowed to bring Wolf back tonight. . .


This is how he/she looks like. Not sure yet whether it's a female or male but Wolf sure looks like Ms Kitty. . . Only she's 4 weeks old. . . Just look at her innocent eyes. . . I absolutely can't wait to carry her in my arms. . .

I finish work at 6pm today and we're going to prolly have dinner first then to the cat shop to get some neccessities for Wolf. . .

Kita Merancang, Tuhan yang menentukan

It is said, "Kita merancang, Tuhan yang menentukan" / "We plan but God decides"

Khairul's Mom just passed away on 22/11/2008 at 12:30am.

It all happened too fast.

But we're happy for her cause all her sufferings have ended.

Life still continues.

Al-Fatihah.

Pictures, A Thousand Words

I was looking thru my photobucket album hoping to cheer me up in this time of stress.

And I happen to look at those old photos I have. . . Some stupid ones and some funny ones. . . Although back then it didn't seem so funny. . .

Enjoy. . .


Look at my F*CKING BIG NOSE


If this picture weren't over exposed it would turn out to be quite good. . .
Guess who I was with?

Yup, that is Hafiza

Trying our best to capture a decent passport photo?

Then also thanks to the invention of timers we were able to take a pic of us posing away with those bikes. Just FYI, we just learned how to ride a bike so we were quite proud of it. Just imagine years after years we were well humiliated for not being able to ride a bike but we conquered the past and now we have the license to ride a bicycle.


Then there were times I lost a lot of weight I think I look small. . . But of course with all those praises it sorts of ends and I look like a pumpkin again.


Just look at how loose this white shirt is. . .GOD! I miss those times

Dear GOD

Dear God,

I pray that Cik Mok will recover soon. Mr Fiance's mom have already gone thru the Bypass Operation but she's not doing too well like what they expected.

Spoke again to the Russion Doctor who did the Bypass and he explained that although before the operation her condition was stable and she's fit for the operation they were shocked cos when they started the operation they found that only 20% of the heart is working while the rest isn't.

He also said, technically the procedure was simple. They took a vein from her left leg and cut it up into 4 pieces and did 4 Bypass's instead of 3 which they mentioned earlier. But apparently they weren't able to find a bigger vein to work with so they settled for a smaller one.

Currently she's still in ICU and she's not urinating which is another major downturn. According to the doctor she's suppose to be urinating and that's how they know that there's sufficient oxygen in her body. Logically it should mean that if she has enough oxygen, it would mean that the heart will pump more blood all over the body and by that it means that blood will be pumped to the kidney for the blood to be 'so-called' cleaned then it filters all those unwanted from the blood then she'll pee. But since she's not pee-ing the doctors are quite worried.

Of course who wouldn't right after all the drugs injected to her body and also the salt water(Sodium Chloride) pumped in to her and food going thru her nose and stuff. So last night before we left for home, they started dialysis. Definitely they don't want another organ to be affected all because of the heart.

I shall not start describing how she looks cause it makes me wanna cry.

So Dear God, I pray please help to double up the speed of her recuperation process.

SICK AGAIN!

Suddenly it's me they're attacking again. The FLU BUG is irritating me. Last Satuday while I was at work, and yes so much for 8:30- 6 office hours I had to come back for standby again. Well actually each time my office holds an event we practically have to take turns to do standby. So well it was my turn last Satuday. Anyways while at work Mr Nosey had to bleed and from then I knew I was turning sick soon.

Yes I was so sure, I was gonna be sick and sure enough Day 1 started on Sunday and it stretched till today. I'm still having fever and flu and my head is spinning, my body is aching and doctor's kind to give me 2 days of MC.

Enough said I'm going back to LaLa Land.

Picture TIME

Seems like my blog's rather empty without pictures. So I shall present to you some pictures I took during a friend's wedding.



This picture was taken along AYE by the roadside. Then another one at the void deck while waiting for the groom



and then a poster I created at work. . .

Not bad huh. It's all over the building man. . .

and lastly a picture of me at SECRET HIDING PLACE having SmokeyDose

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EYES TWITCHING and BAD INTERNET

Bad Internet is slowing me down. Can't complain bout it since I've literally had my fair share of the internet this whole year ever since the pc in the other room broke down. But since it's repaired, my sisters have since conquered the high end broadband. While me, I'm stuck with StarHub's free 1Mbps broadband which sure sucks but I'm thankful. On the other hand Ms Kitty as we speak now is trying to bite my fingers. Yes it's time for Ms Kitty's back rub before napping.

Anyway, let me count. If I'm not wrong it's been more than 10 times this year I've visited the HOSPITAL.

Let me see, earlier this year
1. Mr Fiance's cousin gave birth
2. My sweet friend Jane gave birth too
3. Mr Fiance's uncle got admitted for kidney problem which lead him to dialysis
4. I went to A&E for terrible head pain
5. My lil sister who has been suffering from Chronic Juvenile Arthritis got admitted again.
6. My Fiance's another uncle got admitted for bypass operation
7. and since last Thursday the latest, Mr Fiance's mum just got admitted and pending bypass operation too.

wow that's a handful of them coming from Mr Fiance's family. Sure is scary.

His mom's fine now and the doctor who's supposedly supposed to open her up is super duper HANDSOME! I sure will open up my shirt anytime for him to cut me up like a pig. He's russian. . . mmmmmm . . and he has this nice accent.

Anyway back to the mum, she will be fine.

I've been having the bad right-eye twitch for sometime, not that I'm superstitious or anything but the day I found out why I've been having this bad twitch, it finally stopped. Not sure if it's caused by short of sleep but a minute after the last twitch, I told myself since Mr Fiance's mom is in hospital and due for the op, prolly we'll never get to go for a holiday this year and then it finally stopped, yes strangely it stopped. I definitely have to come to terms with myself and accept the fact that I may not even be able to go on a holiday for sometime.

Yes, selfish of me to even think about a holiday even at times where I think he would need me the most, be by his side. But after a long while of being the ANGEL, playing along with the game that he has planned for me. I suddenly have this secret little wish of which I think will never come true. If I was SINGLE, it would have helped alot.

Dear GOD, I pray that his mom will be back in good health once again.

I'VE GOT MAIL

Yes ah! I finally got mail.

So that's the same reason why I finally decided it's time I made myself a signature.

and a friend at work said, "Huh so cute ah?"
then I said, "Yeah when you don't have much to do, sure got time lah to do so cute."



and I purposely put that lady figure there. All this while using an office mail made me realise, sometimes a truly ignorant idiot can sometime mistook "MELISSA" AS A GUY'S NAME!

and and and by the way did I indirectly tell you I'm working at TP. . . Oooops yes I did!

Sometimes it's quite fun especially when you have Adobe Photoshop on this PC you get to do a lot of stuff here and by the way I also have IMEEM running at the back just for me to listen to my type of music. Having no rights to access Friendster, Facebook or even YouTube sure sucks! So make do with what I have. Now I can always access Multiply cause it's still not blocked. GOOD or WHAT?

Maybe I should do something to my MULTIPLY! It's so DEAD now!

Ramblings

Morning Shower - Check
Breakfast - Check
Toilet Break - Check
Morning SmokyDose - Check
Constant BlindSpot Mirror Gaze - Check
Skip Lunch - Check

All done!

Back to being Ms Pretentious - currently on going.

Morning is never complete with nonsensical words coming out of Mr Fiance. The only thing that keeps me awake before enjoying the morning smokydose.

Here I am at work, sitting, waiting and waiting and waiting again for something to happen, something good.

Last evening, Ms Kitty and me went on a short roadtrip. Yes a roadtrip to send Mr Fiance's dad to work. Shouldn't actually be called a roadtrip since it was a mere half hour drive but seeing how curious she was made it all look like a nice short roadtrip. Curious for a fact that cars just outside the closed windows could be driven so fast. Curious that cars outside the windows has exhaust as loud as an airplane. Yes CURIOUS, as curious as a cat and a scaredy little cat she is.

The fact that she would hide right under my armpit makes me the protector of evil. Certainly made my day when she tries to snuggle under my armpit a place she would hide her face from all those scary things outside.

Being so curious that finally left her tired and an early bedtime. Which means me too, I enjoyed an early bedtime. Somehow she's behaving more and more like humans, only she doesn't talk. Ms Kitty sleeps in an air-con room on her own orange bed under her blue towel and yes the whole body covered by the towel. At night just like us she wakes up to enjoy a sip of drink from her bowl before returning back to her bed.

The early bedtime lead me to my dreamland. Repitions of the same dream I have been having for probably more than a year ago. So today I decide, I would look it up since I don't have much to do at work.

RUNNING
"To dream that you are running away from someone, indicates an issue that you are trying to avoid. You are not taking or accepting responsibility for your actions. In particular, if you are running from an attacker or any danger, then it suggests that you are not facing and confronting your fears.

To dream that you are trying to run but cannot make your feet move as fast as you want them to, signifies lack of self-esteem and self-confidence. It may also reflect your actual state of REM paralysis while in the dream state.


To dream that you are running alone, signifies that you will advance to a higher position and surpass your friends in the race for wealth. Alternatively, you may be running from some situation or from temptation.

To dream that you are running with others, signifies festive and prosperous times."

My dream is "running but cannot make my feet move faster". Yes I really can't. That's the reason why at any chance I can get to jog on the spot I would. But of cos I only do it at home. I just want to testify that I still can jog/run but of course I can't deny I do get tired easily.

The next dream I've been dreaming about is HOLIDAY

"To dream of holidays, represent a need for a break or time for rest. You are expressing a wish to escape from your responsibilities. Depending on the activities related to the holiday, the dream may also indicate family issues, personal attitudes or some difficulty. "

Definitely I think escaping from responsibilities would be my No.1 and I seriously think I deserve another holiday or rather in need of holiday.

I bid adieu

1hr 20 mins left before I bid adieu to work for today.

The whole day sitted on this chair, reading blogs, shaving my eyebrows, surfing sites, then the countless visit to the toilets and but of course finishing up the slides I was asked too. All these done, just waiting for the clock to tick 6:00 before I can finally step out of THE IGLOO(they mistook us for penguins).

TODAY is LAME DAY

Yes today was the day, I thought.
The day I would finally start picking up my pen and start working like all the others. All others who drag their feet to work and pray for a lesser workload.

But for a lesser workload(basically nothing to do) I have had the past month, I thought today was it. I cleared my table last Friday, balance of scraps the previous owner had. All her junks neatly packed into 3 BIG BOXES for her to pick up at her convenience(1 storey away) before I learnt that her seat's been vacant for almost a year. So looks like I'll just be transferring her truckload full of junk(2 BIG BOXES of SHOES) back to the other corner for another 20 years or even more.

New-Mommy who just returned to work today was supposed to impart me all knowledge she've learned but looks like she's too busy with every other things like catching up with good gossips, latest news she've missed the last 3 months and but of course clearing up all the trash that's been building up on her table thanks to all the mens.

So that's right, it's just gonna be another lame day. Another day full of pretence. Amidst the economic downturn, there's no such thing as lazing around. At the rate I'm going, even a short power-point slide takes hours to finish. I'm definitely not lazing around. When asked if I'm busy, never answer with a short 'NO' rather circle the bushes 3 times first avoiding the answer cause all busy workers here don't have the time to listen to a long story. They're suppose to be busy too like me right?

While staring blankly at the monitor still pretending, how I dream of a sweet day lying on the comfort of my bed. . . looking at how silly Ms Kitty is playing with her toys while watching 'The Nanny' on cable. Exactly what I was doing more than a month ago before I started this job. Reminiscing seems to be only thing that takes my mind off this igloo I call work.

Complaining doesn't do wonder. Only makes me brood over something I definitely can't change but rather change the impression of how people would look at me. Especially people here since I'm new to the Government Working Environment. Honestly it kinda get a big difficult to get accustomed to this job cause to start with I'm not sure what these people are doing in the first place. Their roles, their uniform, their ranks they're so bitchy about and the acronym they rely on every single day at work are driving me crazy. Seriously, crazy. . .