It's all coming in to me as a rush and I'm taking quite some time to swallow, digest and accept it all at one go.
Of course I'm happy that finally I'm taking the BIG STEP, but honestly it's all just so rush-rush.
At the moment I can't even spare the time to think about it as all my time is filled up with preparing for lots and lots of stuff and doing things that needs to be done.
Thank God for Mum's been really helping me with a lot of things. . .
She have already booked the podium, downstairs.
Met up with the caterer and paid the deposit.
Confirmed the mak andam for the nikah date.
Ordered and paid deposit for the berkats.
and she have done Oh-So-Many-Things. . . I'm glad she's my MUM. . .
Michelle and Auntie is helping me with the Sound System.
Kak Ita is helping me check out the price ranges since I am to be married at the mosque.
Wow. . . that's a 1001 burdens off my shoulder. . .
This is the family I'm grateful for.
I'm left with helping out financially and getting myself ready for this BIG EVENT.
I'm a little scared and nervous and when I sit all alone by myself I cry. . . I sometimes would even cry myself to sleep. . . I'm just a little fickle-minded. . .
But at times like this, with the wedding all rushy-rushy. . . People look at me differently as if concerned but honestly just wanting to laugh or spread un-true rumours about myself should their guess turns out true. . .
I feel pressured for the very fact that I don't have time to think about myself. . .
I don't get to decide it by myself and decisions made are highly influenced by the guest I'm expecting and mostly not to hurt the feelings of many close ones. . .
If any are wondering, I will gladly clear the rumours.
No. 1 I'm not pregnant.
I'm sure all are dying to find out. That's definitely not a reason why I'm to be married this March.
If any of you have forgotten, Mr Fiance's Mom passed on last December.
The house have been left empty and definitely too quiet.
Mr Fiance's family have their reasons to why they're requesting for the early marriage and I'm at no liberty whatsoever to tell it to anybody. My lips are sealed.
I agreed to the wedding.
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Babe, there are always others in this world who can't wait to see the downfall of others.
I understand how you feel... About being frustrated that people might be making assumptions about you.
It's also becoming a norm thing in my life for quite some time now. Just coz of some decisions in my life, where I may not be like many others. People say this and that, making such wild accusations that are definitely not pleasing to the ears... I used to crumble to this, but I've become more mature in handling such situations.
Now, sometimes I even entice those people's imaginations further, and see how far their imagination can run. It's really amusing indeed. Haha...
But I guess the strength of family is a key opponent in making things in life much much more smoother. =)
One thing for sure is to never care about whatever people might be talking about you.
And you're right. You don't owe any form of explaination, to anyone whatsoever. If their imaginations wanna run, let them... Perhpas it's their only form of entertainment. =)
A wedding/marriage is a sacred thing. Am sure you are very happy to embark on this whole new journey.
Am really so happy for you... Someone I knew since I was that lil nerd kid in primary school. Getting married and all... How time pass so damn fast. Hahaha... =)
Be strong and be happy. And I guess being nervous is always part of starting a new experience, right? Hehe...
But insyallah, things will turn out to be more blessed than you would ever expected. =)
And I should think that will even put your mother-in-law's soul at peace... Amin.
Congrats once again, babe...
And I will see you soon enough. ;)
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