Okay here goes, the long awaited entry.... (it will be slightly slower to have this page loaded as we all know because of the long entry and the many-many-many pictures requested....)

Jeng jeng jeng... I know you all are waiting anxiously by your computer be it at home or at work... Because you guys so wanted to see the picture rite... Especially the babes at work... kkekekeke... and the boyfy... He is so in need of the daily dosage kekeke my blog entry... Okay but before I jump into the all picture entry and stuff... Let's talk about me first okay... Of course lah me.. then talk about who...

Okay.... Look at this...

In the midst of everyone, acting as kiasu and kiasi at the buffet table, some walking around for no reasons and blocking my view of the oh so beautiful dais... I was whining and whining and whining to the boyfy for him to bring me close to the dais so that I can grab a picture of this... So jambu rite... Perhaps I'll have mine... Something like this...
But maybe in the next couple of years, it's going to be so much much more nicer than this... with more new ideas.... I'll so so so decorate my own dais.... It'll be perfect... kekek....

I so so so so wanted to be seated on that hot pink chair...
Arrgghhh.... The chandelier, the roses, the retro hot pink chair and the cushion cover... I loike very very much but the bunger telur... Looks so UGLY... don't match at all sia...

and yes.... I attended wedding... Apparently made a deal out of it... If boyfy brings me and my mum to kubur-grave(sorry no pictures... duh... later i scared cannot sleep hokay), I'll in turn follow him to 2 weddings... Of which I don't know...

Just that it made me feel like going to the grave after the incident we had at Vivo City.... So you see last Tuesday, boyfy, faizal and me went to Vivo City... So boyfy drove us there and we past by the place where Arwah boyfy's mummy passed away.... So as per normal, whenever I walk by or passby such places with sad memories, I will pray... Well of course not only for boyfy's late mum lah... Even sometimes when I see a skinny guy riding a bike, it reminds me of my late brother and I will pray... I pray that God forgives them and place them in heaven...

So once we reached Vivo and bla bla bla bla and then finished with shopping and drove off and was already on the way to Johor before a pit stop for the Car to drink some fuel, we realised that boyfy's wallet went missing... Of course, a natural reaction from boyfy.... Mengamuk and masam muka.... alamak... I tell you... You don't want to see the real him especially when he is mad...

Then I decided... Why not visit Vivo again, perhaps we could have left if at the carpark... He was so reluctant but managed to coax him... no no no it was more like screaming and forcing him to get he's guts together... I tell you... he is so out of control sia... I told him if you start behaving like a mad person and all this attitude... you are so so so never going to find the wallet...

So we went to Vivo in the end and used the same route again and I prayed again for he's late mum... and I pray too that we will find the wallet... So all my friends you want to guess or not did we or did we not find the wallet... Cheh... of course lah we found the wallet... it's at the carpark.. with nothing stolen... He's IC, my ATM card, he's ATM card, he's driving license and all the other cards and cash..... Thank God....

So in the end we concluded, maybe God was mad that we always forget about those who have left us and we always pray when we are sad... That was when I talked to him and we decided, when we're free we should go to the grave and visit the long gone...

Okay back to the story about the DAIS....

Okay next stop...

So up next is the other wedding at Tampines.... The dais.... was only an okay okay lah.... because I've seen this too many times lah.... it's always the same thing with those bunger bunger (flower flower) everywhere... Urgghh... Same old thing...

So let's start with the cam-whoring....


From left...(Fira, Moi, Along, Cik Enab, Dada, Cik Mok)
So how, can join beauty pageant.... kekke...
Eh looks like I'm one of the tallest ah.. That 4 inch wedges, really help...
I loike...


From Left top, (Ain, Fira, Me and Yani)
So Ain and Fira is boyfy's cousin and Yani is Ijul(aka boyfy's cousin) girlfriend....
Don't tell Yani a joke because behind that so beautiful face she laughes like no one else...
Everybody will laugh after hearing her laugh... and although she know this... She's still laughing the way she normally laugh... So funny yani....


And the lovely couple.. This was taken after the wedding, was when we realise, we should take a break from all those nasty crowd and just chill at Kent Ridge Park... after a really really long day.... I loike...

Okay this will go by the date okay... Duh... a few days never update....

Although they look alike... Don't be fooled... Boyfy is not even related to any of them... That's Ayah-Cik(aka Faizal's) niece and nephew... But they bear a strong resemblance dont they... Boyfy looks exactly like that bald boy only that Boyfy was not bold while he was a kid.... He had hair and it's with a left parting or a right... I can't remember... wakakkakaka..... Now he has no parting.... he hair is growing just like Marge Simpson... If you know who I'm referring too... On a totally unrelated topic.... I love The Simpsons...

Then the infamous beauty... wakakak and her bottle of Pokka Green Tea.... as a few around me at my workspace may know.. I only drink Green Tea from Pokka because it's not so sweet compared to all the other Green Tea in the market...


Then comes Shankar... He is so making me look like a DWARF... I hate it... Even those 4 inch killer heels will not give me that extra height to beat he's.... He no more one head taller than me he's so many many many head taller than me sia...

and the lady that looks like she is in a blanket instead of a shawl... Fion.... kekeke... She seats just on my left... and if she's not there.. I can really feel that I'm all alone... Sad sad sad.... Because before Javier sat on my right... We are the only 2 Internet Bankers on that row...

Some more that Jason Kong on 3 weeks LEAVE... So quiet... Otherwise... We all know if he's here... He will storm us with lots and lots and lots of cases... before he ask us this question, "Melissa are you busy? / Melissa have you eaten your lunch / Melissa you look free / Melissa please check your LN....." Aiyoh headache lah... So peepz... Do we miss our dear Officer JK.... You tell me....


And the self pic of Fion... taken with that green thing with a face....I don't know what...

and then... you see when you're busy she just snap a pic of herself... So cute rite.... I loike... How to not say when she's on OFF or another shift I feel bored.. She can be very entertaining... But of course I always come first.... hehehe....



and then let's give it again for the famous internet bankers...

So the guys are Ryan, Ivan, Javier and the girls... Betty and Melly.... Melly I'm so going to steal that 2 dimples of yours... Arrgghhh.... So cute rite.. How can she have 2 when i don't have any... I'm so going to poke my cheeks with a chopstick later... rite Betty...


and the famous duo one more time...

and then the trio... wakaka...

and that is Azmi, Betty and Ryan....


and this guy...

WAh lau this post is like super longest sia... Guess what I'm going to do next... I'm going to sleep as a start hopefully that black eye bags start disappearing... I hate it... Lucky I OFF tomorrow...

To all you beautiful people...
Bon Soir....

SUPRISES.....

I lurve SUPRISES...

First and foremost.. the suprise and how I was so suprised...

You know how i use to talk non-stop and say that boyfy is unromantic.... Well i can see that he's more or less improving... Yesterday or shud i say Sunday Night when he picked me up after work.. He said, he was going to bring me to a place.. The first time we met.... and so he did.. but before that.. he bought me a bouquet of flowers...oh so sweet.. I loike... Then...

HE SUPRISED ME WITH A CANON DIGI CAM...
(eh if that's what u're thinking i'm going after my bf's money... oh please okay...i'm not like that... with my pay i can afford 3 of those but then I'll be starving lah...)


Arrrghhh... How could he rite... I love you hunny bunny... I like it... Now I don't mind selling my N70 and getting a cheap phone sia... Because it probably won't be useful to me anymore... But bottom line is I LOIKE I LOIKE I LOIKE....

hehehe.. So no more pixelated pictures and no more low quality pictures.... ehehehe... Baby I love you... It's all I ever wanted...

Then come the next suprise... I just CUT CUT CUT SNIP SNIP SNIP my hair....
but of course.. Many said that it's still the same from the front view... Cheh..
and they boyfy thought I pandai-pandai cut my hair myself... cheh....

The Back View and the side View...(ignore the face....)

The happy face and the exhausted face COMBO... and why am i still with the lanyard.. I'm off work ya know...

and of course the oh so excited face to try out the new cam at home....

and that's pooh again... with the flowers.. cause each time I get any.. I'll take a picture of it with pooh...

Can't wait till tomorrow.. Since it's my OFF day.. I'm gonna get something for boyfy also... but of course with him around lah.... VIVO CITY HERE WE COME....

Before and After


That's me without a chin and neck.... and the latest one is me with chin and neck....
(sorri zaimah had to use our picture as example)


That was how skinny and young the boyfy looked like but after 3 years... he looks so old... but...mmmmm..mmmm...mmmm... I love old guys... uuhhhh

Wooow... can u believe it... how ugly and kental i use to be last time... and now....
it's awhole new thing... Sighhh...

How things change so fast... You know each time you wonder... Aiyah why so slow... Want to go back already but still got 15 minutes... Then ironically, you will tell yourself... Aiyah why so fast... I feel so old already... Aiyah... sad sad sad... But that's life... We complain, when it's so slow then we complain why it' so fast.. Cheh...

Anyways have a nice night... My suprise.... Wait ah... Later I go home and upload....nitey nitey...

It took me a week to get over this issue...
Ahh... Such a relief...

I must say... I feel like such an ass for revealing the whole story to everybody...
But my intentions are true and sincere....

So life with the boyfy is going as per normal but of course with me being a bit cranky and throwing tantrums now is so F.U.N. and I love my life... What can I say...

IF she doesn't appear in our life, we'll never know how far the boyfy can stretch... "get my drift..."

So... there's a suprise coming up pretty soon... Sadly it will all have to wait till after I finish work... because there's no way I can update it now.. So let's all just wait for it okay... I must say I've been quite bored lah nowadays...

3 years into a relationship and no no no I'm not going to ruin it just because of some uninvited biatch who suddenly just appear and try to snatch the oh-so-honest boyfy... I'll try to make things right but boyfy... don't hope so much for the relationship to be as per normal... because.. it'll take days, months, years or even a lifetime to forget what you purposely did to me... and oh need I mention... Even if her name comes up in our conversation.. it'd be one that I purposely selit(squeeze) thru and to make fun off.... and boyfy will laugh to.... "i mean whatever that makes the girl happy.... rite..."

hei... bitch get a life.. go and bother some other single guys out there with your problems... because I believe all the other attached guys are too busy with their own girlfriend and their relationship problems to be helping you out with yours... hehehehe...

To : All the GIRLFRIEND in the whole wide world...
All these 3rd Party Bitches should be banished...

Hei... For 3 damn years... I believed and I wished that I was the Perfect Girlfriend...
You see when you try so hard... but you get shit thrown on your face... it's the last thing a"Perfect Girlfriend" would ever wished for... Now.. I'm no more trying... Cause I'm done with my part... It's he's turn now on the merry-go-round... There's so many things I can do for him but he can't for me.... But now I'm waiting for him to do things he can do for me that I can't do for him.... Let's see how the Perfect Boyfriend scores...
(P/S: Boyfy, in case you forgot.... Where's my RED book... Don't just promise the world for me but ending up not doing it....)

I reasoned out and get it damn clear to him...
You know anyone new... You tell me...
You think I'm not good enough... You tell me and leave me...
But don't do things behind my back...
You don't have to worry about me crawling and begging you to take me back...
Because I don't do that kind of thing....

So listen.. I'm not the over-protective girlfriend... who overpowers the sweet and innocent boyfriend here... I'm the victim, who was taken advantage of...

So the next thing this kinda stuff happens to me again... Don't worry... I'll not air it out on my blog instead... I'll tell the whole world.. how nice it is to be SINGLE....

An SMS Conversation...
Between 2 person... You'll find out SOON...
(for the benefit of my non-malay reader)

SMS 1
She : rabak eh u.. org msg tak layan (u so bad... i msg never reply)
Me : is it... Who's this I lupa... (is it... Who's this I forgot)

SMS 2
She : nisah
Me : Nisa... Eh where did I get to know you ah... I forget ah...

SMS 3
She : wei hello.. d net, like duh!
Me : *I didn't respond to this SMS... because... I was not the intended recipient...*

SMS 4
She : Anyway, how's ur babe? She's good?
Me : *I still did not reply because... At this moment... I was clarifying things with the intended recipient*

SMS 5
She : nisahoney here lah..

I seriously need an explanation...

I came out with a conclusion, she changed the topic at SMS 4, because she got this feeling that she was not SMS-ing the intended recipient... Seems that she might have been quite close to the intended recipient... That was why she was able to sense something was wrong...

After this sms, I was quite disappointed as the intended recipient still do not want to admit it... I felt CHEATED... So after I got back home, I called SHE...

She told me that they got to know each other way before the intended recipient and myself got together... Presumably, it should be 3 years ago then... Before even probing further... She informed me that SHE and the intended recipient was suppose to meet up at GEYLANG on the 4th day of PUASA(Fasting Month).... but... the intended recipient declined... and the reason when asked...

COINCIDENTALLY... since I've known the intended recipient for quite some time... I know, what the reason is and I was devastated to know that my answer that I kept in my heart was the exact answer SHE replied...

(I don't want to meet up in Geylang.. I don't like being held in traffic jams and I hate it because it's difficult to find parking...)

So if we were to refer back to the SMSes sent earlier about me concluding that they might have known each other so well.. I can't deny it... Especially having to hear right from SHE herself....

Intended-Recipient's Defence
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This I don't want to tell because... You'll sooner or later find out... the truth.... Very anti-climax..

I slept that night... with this hurtful feeling in my heart.. I can feel my heart tearing up.. But no.. I have not let myself break down yet... Because I wanted to know more...........

The Next Day
SMS 1
ME : Hi Nisa... I'm Melissa... I called yesterday regarding "the intended recipient"... Sorry to be bothering you again... There's something I seriously need to know... Your answer would be very much appreciated... I'm in a state too emotionally affected by this... I doubt you can understand how I feel now... This is quite a major blow for me.. So how well do you know "the intended recipient"...
SHE : I have been in ur shoes b4... I noe how's it feel... frankly speaking.. from a range of 1 to 10 on how well i noe him... it's a negative. we hardly tok on d fone.. d no. of msg we received or sent can b counted by 2 hands. net jgn ckp, i'm way too bz with my work to go online..

SMS 2
ME : I quote you mentioned, "i have been in your shoes"... i don't mean to be rude... but having you to SMS "the intended recipient" knowing he has a girlfriend... Do you have an explanation for that...
SHE : babe, having him as a bf doesnt mean u r owning him.. der's no such rules as once attached, no frens of opposite sex.. wat's more i'm engaged.. y shud i dump my fiance for a guy who's less than a fren?

SMS 3
ME : I see... Thanks for that definition of boyfriend and girlfriend... You don't need to be defensive... One more question how did you get "the intended recipient's" contact number...
SHE : exchanged no...

SMS 4
ME : Thanks for the clarification...
SHE : ur "intended recipient" is proud of u, or else he hide his status n won't show ur pic to me. just like him, i wanna show my fiance to a fren. dun read into things too much..

SMS 5
ME : Oh yeah... Strange thing he hid me from you.. Perhaps you're not worth talking about... Strange thing whatever you say and whatever he say don't coincide... I'm still wondering why...
SHE : *did not replied..*

*I'm just purely CUTTING and PASTING what SHE said and the conversation WE HAD... No adjustments were made...*

From SMS 1 we can all conclude...
- they have talked on phone before
- they have sms-ed before
- they have MSN before
- SHE has been thru what I'm facing now

From SMS 2 we can all conclude...
- she is okay with her fiance contacting other girls
- i must EMPHASIZE this... I'm not HER and SHE's not ME... So now she's teaching me the rules and regulations of being attached are as such... (Oh now I know....)
- very contradicting.. the "intended recipient" is less than a friend... but she still takes the effort to start SMS-ing the "intended recipient"... (I have no idea why???)

From SMS 3 we can all conclude..
- that the "intended recipient" LIED.... {The intended recipient said, "My friend gave her my number"} but SHE said... "exchanged no.."

From SMS 4 we can all conclude...
- don't both of them make lovely couple... they share the same opinion... (Oh.. how sweet...)
- strange thing... the "FIANCE" term came out only after "the intended recipient" called SHE... that goes to show that "the intended recipient" did not know of this fact...
- so why even say "i wanna show my fiance to a fren"(oh yeah.. we almost forgotten the fact that the intended recipient is less of a fren.. now I get it...)

From SMS 5 we can all conclude...
- she do not want to continue because she needs to know what she lied and what "the intended recipient" lied and why it's different(i don't know... u tell me...)

THE INTENDED RECIPIENT's LIE
- I don't know her...
- I did not give her my number.. instead my colleague from work gave it to her...
- I have never planned to meet her...
- I have sms-ed her and told her to stop SMS-ing me...

When I spoke to the intended recipient... He was sorry... but turns out, he was sorry for all the wrong thing... I'm insecured... and i hate to feel as if I was wrong to be sensitive, I was wrong to be emotional, I was wrong for reacting and behaving in this manner... Both their fingers are pointing at me... It makes me feel sad... I was not consoled by him... instead... he wants me to know why he was accused.. why I reacted this way since it's not he's fault... He even told me to think about it... He told me that even SHE is troubled by this and feels so sorry... He told me that if I'm sad.. he can't focus at work... So both of you have had the chance to prove that non of u are in the wrong... Congratulations...

So have u asked me how I felt... ???
Thanks Tuty and Zaimah...

((this is purely my blabbering.. and my writings... don't even start judging me... because I swear I'll bring you DOWN!!! my intentions are not to humiliate but rather express my thoughts... so if you don't like it.. PLEASE LEAVE... you're not even welcomed..))

Brace yourself for this SUPER LONG ENTRY

work  /wɜrk/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[wurk] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation noun, adjective, verb, worked or (Archaic except for 35, 37, 40) wrought; working.
–noun

1.exertion or effort directed to produce or accomplish something; labor; toil.
2.something on which exertion or labor is expended; a task or undertaking: The students finished their work in class.
3.productive or operative activity.
4.employment, as in some form of industry, esp. as a means of earning one's livelihood: to look for work.
5.one's place of employment: Don't phone him at work.
6.materials, things, etc., on which one is working or is to work.
7.the result of exertion, labor, or activity; a deed or performance.

.... the list goes on and on and on but I'll stop here....

The true meaning of work...

it pays for my shopping, lightens my mum's household burden, shelter and food...

Maybe I should write my own dictionary...

I'm kinda sick and tired of working, but I remembered when I was unemployed many months back... It got kinda worrying, the thought of having no $$MONEY$$ in the pocket drives me crazy... I swear I'll pull out all my hair and I'll be bald....

So I'm thankful I have a job... Unless of course, I come from a rich family, maybe I'll be granted with many more choices of job and the pay would not even be in one of my top priorities... cause doing something you like is of utmost importance.... and I'll even take it up willingly even if they pay me a few cents by the hour... Then I don't have to grunt each time I need to wake up for work in the morning....

But hei... Life is never fair... Anyways work has been quite stressful lately... Having each one of us to struggle in order to reach the DESIRED SVL.... It's crazy... No matter how much effort we put in, there's always other factors that drop the SVL and till date I have no idea how they count the SVL... I swear and I believe all of us have done our very BEST but still the stats are not satisfying... How sad... It's okay IFS-ers... We can do it... I believe WE are being watched closely by many other teams... I'm not sure what they're watching at... but ....

HOME NEWS...

Well my nephew's back at home now, he's quite sad about the whole ordeal he had the past few weeks and missing out on HARI RAYA and those very FUN-MONEY-COLLECTING-HOUSE VISITS... because he was warded due to the accident... I can try to understand what he's facing.. and the fact that he had to undergo a few operations at a young age... Honestly, I've been to only one operation when I was 15 myself but that was just a minor operation... But he's... is much more serious than it seems...

So I must really applaud him for he's courage to stay strong and determination to get well.. I heard he's even walking now... Although a bit limp but I'm sure in time to come... He'll be running as fast as Road-runner... I know that scar on he's thigh will remain a scar for the rest of he's life but he's that strong SUPERMAN in my heart always... because I almost fainted when Kak Ita showed me he's scar...

So just a little reminder to those of you who will in future make fun of my little nephew's SCAR... Hei, you think you can bear that pain, he once suffered... I bet, you can't survive and don't know what he's been through... You !@#@$#!@%... Looks don't last a life time but sincerity and true personality will... So don't go around judging people by they way they look... That's not enough...

Time check now is at 12:11AM.... less than an hour to go and I'm done... Wohooo... So bored man... I know puasa month is over and the sudden urge to eat chocolates is growing by the minutes... I'm going crazy... on Monday, I kirim my MissHell to get me KitKat Chunky, then Tuesday, on the way to work I bought KitKat Chunky again and today I forced Azmi to go down and get me another KitKat Chunky again.... A total of 3 Bars of chocolate for this week...

I think I better start a plan to repay what I've consumed... So Boyfy when will be our next date to East Coast for cycling... I'm expanding horizontally by the minutes now... then all my efforts will be such a big waste... I'm so not going to touch and even say the forbidden name again... but KitKat is exceptionally and amazingly nice today... Maybe because I paid SGD1.80 today compared to the normal SGD1.20 from the mama shop at my place... Why do 7 Eleven charge so much... So expensive....

I'm so bored now, the only one working till 1am.. No friends to talk too... So boring... You know I can start babbling and babbling and babbling and won't stop typing so before this entry start to seem like it's a one year publication.. I shall say tata for now...

Thanks to Tutik OH SO MUCH for dropping by my place earlier....

Otherwise, I would have gone CRAZY hours ago... I was so bored at home and desperately needed company and there were so many things to talk about, to share and some thoughts of mine seriously need advices... and I feel so relieved after she left...

You know, we girls share secrets that many don't know of and won't even believe that it's the true-blue-US... Well we're not hypocrites but certain things about us are better left unknown and hidden...

Yesterday, something happened and it made me think about my future... Like I always do every night before I go to sleep... and I'm so scared... I shared this with Tutik and sometimes, a pair of listening ears and shoulder to cry on is so comforting....

So okay, let's move on to the next thing... Well myself and Tutik, have already sibuk-sibuk plan for our next trip to BANGKOK.... ah hahaha... I'm so excited... Cannot wait... We're going on the 6 Jan to 8 Jan... Yeah yeah tell me I know it's too early to even tell everybody but... we have already started planning.... Since it's just the 2 of us... We'll pack less clothes and buy even more clothes.. i cannot wait.... aaahh..... I LOIKE...

and earlier tutik, mum and me was having this short conversation... Although I have never mentioned about this to my mum.... She said that it'll be good for me to join Tutik next year and go visit England... Is she for REAL.... ahhhhh...... TOPSHOP here I come...

and the other thing...
To: AYU... SHAFFINAZ... WATI.... NURIYAH... JULI.... HAFIZA... MARRISSA... &... JELVI

Hei... guess what yesterday I went house cum rayer visiting... I went to Zaimah's house, we started yakking-yakking-yakking and realised that we've been talking rots for an hour or so sia... and we just wanna say WE MISSED YOU so much... If you are reading this, please please please email me at melissa_sara_@hotmail.com Maybe thru this we can meet up in a huge group once again... DSS rules...(so secondary sch)

Anyways dah berbual-berbual lupa pulak nak amik gambar but of course i only remembered after we left her place lah... so we only ended up with my picture, boyfy and Faizal..

but shan't post it out... because so UGLY... But there's a few pictures I shall put up...
taken on our FIRST VIRGIN VISIT to VIVO CITY....



Uhh... sexy neck.... slurp slurp...

Lying down let's count the STARS...


My favourite Liverpool player...

and from the "I change my mind" GROUP...
hadios...